...::: Anyssia :::...

This year, I'm writing a Teen Wolf fanfiction for Nanowrimo (2015) and determined to see it to the end. Because, so far in over a decade of writing numerous bits here and there, and then publishing a few of them while keeping most of it lost in various folders, I haven't managed to finish a single long story.

I have a long Final Fantasy VII story started back in 2006 (in French even, and then translated in English, and then written straight in English because there so few French readers). Many people asked for it to be continued, but I'd need to start over because -2006!- and I need to rewrite the outline.

That's my main problem, you know: if I don't outline, I get lost, I wander, I go nowhere. If I write one, I lose interest, once the story is fleshed out on paper. So I've been trying another way: I write a part and outline in a sentence the next part. I write that part and outline the next and etc... We'll see how it goes.

As I said, a Teen Wolf fic, because I have an unhealthy obsession with Stiles Stilinski and Peter Hale. I love stories of revenge and those two have a damn lot of potential with revenge. So far, it's been going as usual: meaning, I've already restarted the story twice. And this morning, I've been thinking of starting it over again.

My usual problem is that I explain too much. I spend too much time on thoughts and not nearly enough on actions. I'm 10k in and so far Stiles has gone shopping then somehow visited Deucalion's lair and eat cookies. Or muffins, I don't even remember. Exciting, isn't it? I mean, he basically took 3'000 words to get out of the kitchen.

I feel kinda pathetic. I've recently moved near Lille, France, and thought, since it's such a big city/conurbation, there's bound to be many people participating to Nanowrimo. And yes, many of them introduced themselves. And then one of the 'ancient' explained that they met for write in every Saturday and I was like... 'whut??? Once a week?? That's it? But, why???' The forum itself is mainly unused and I don't like forums anyway, soooo. I met two people via the facebook page for the Nanowrimo-ers living in the North of France and we met three or four times a week so far, so it's been good anyway, even if the forum and facebook are relatively dead, I mostly communicate via twitter as a result. We do write-in of three, or two. Which is nice enough. Less difficult to find free space anyway. But I didn't make friends like I'd hope I'd do. I see Nanowrimo as a time to meet people with like minded interests and this time it has been quite a let down. If it stays this way, I might move to Lyon in a few years. At least, there I know that there are many people participating and animating this month. I had hope to find people that I could continue to meet up during the rest of the year, but...

What's not helping is that while I laboriously manage 2'000 words a day, the two I've met manage to produce 6'000 words easily. I'm barely staying on top of the minimum word requirement per day, which means about 17k by today, and one has reached 45k, meaning to do 50k today, while the other is at 39k. And I don't know if it's the depression that's been plaguing me for weeks talking, but I feel like I annoy them and am a burden. I haven't seen them in two days and I don't want to ask to meet again, because I don't know if it's really always me who only ask to meet, or if they were really busy. One has not been to a write in since last Friday or Saturday and it makes me wonder if I don't bother them. I know I talk too much, but I don't seem to be able to stop, even though I hate myself a little afterward.

Meanwhile, I want to start over for the third time. So, I have the words, but as usual, I probably won't have a finished story but will rather end up with bits and pieces that will be stored in Google Docs and never used again.

Well, I started this entry, thinking I'd talk about my numerous plot change, and here I'm complaining. Well, let's say it helped me write half my required word count already.

So, regarding the plot! I wanted to make a steter fic, but with the ship being merely background. What I really want is to write about Stiles being a magical geek and reading everything he can get his hands on. And since Derek is a jerk jock in this world (set between season 2 and 3) and won't let in the human, Stiles finds himself set aside. Which is how he meets Deucalion, who takes a shine to the lonely little spark and gleefully set to make Stiles badass to rub it into Derek's face what a moron he is.

The first draft was Stiles going to Peter for information and eventually Peter dragging in Deucalion for more stuff and learning some interesting truth about how the Alpha power is passed down. The second was Stiles unexpectedly meeting Deucalion and getting dragged to his loft when Duke realized that there was an untrained spark available to fuck with Derek's lack of common sense, and Stiles learning the truth about how Laura took the Alpha power from Peter (you see a pattern, no?).

The one I thought of this morning was because of a book I bought yesterday and started today in a fit of total procrastination: Crocodile on the Sandbank. I'm not so sure about the plot itself yet, but I'm only at 26 % and it's a 19 books long series, so I have time, but the main character and her friend is a delightfully feminist female, who isn't afraid to tell men to mind their own business and let her do her thing as she wishes.

It made me want this too. I want to read a girl!Stiles story in which she's badass and strong and nerdy and Peter can't help but fall in love with her because competency is a wonderful kink. So, obviously, yet another re-write. With hopefully more action and less describing of the muffins...

Posted in full at: http://ift.tt/1KFnEpv at September 26, 2015 at 06:34PM
I’ve never used so many “fucks” in an outline.

(also, it’s 10 pages long now)
Tags:ffvii, preparing for, nanowrimo, my dear diary
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Posted in full at: http://ift.tt/1OYpurH at September 26, 2015 at 01:54PM

I didn’t feel like staying at home today, nor taking the subway to Lille and deal with the Saturday crowds, so I decided to go check out my city’s library.

Best idea ever.

Seriously, this place is awesome! (fun fact, it’s called the Grand-Plage, aka Big Beach xD Special name for a library). The library card is free (at least, for those who live in Roubaix), it has wifi (fortunately), many tables everywhere, a patio, numerous outlets, three floors (+ ground floor), clean, simple decoration/layout (I love their ceiling lights), a coffee shop!, computers for those who need it, a very nice gentleman at the entrance who explained everything and guided me through the place, and it’s open from 9 am to 7 pm from Tuesday to Saturday! \o/

Me thinks I’ve found my place for november/nanowrimo xD At least, when I’m not at writing meets. I don’t know if there are many people around here participating. Well, it’s Lille, there should be enough for a small group, at least, I expect.

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Tags:médiathèque, library, roubaix, lille, france, nanowrimo, my dear diary
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I did it! No, seriously, I really did :)
What I'm talking about, of course, is Nanowrimo. I think I mentioned it, at the beginning of the month. So yeah, this year I've been working on it, again (it was my fourth Nano. Feels like much more, actually). Last year, I didn't finish, because I had to go visit my family half way through and writing there was simply horrible. Too many distractions, too much noise...

Anyway, I definitively was hoping that this year it would work out in the end, and it did! I went to Lyon almost every week-end (3h by train, just to get there, urgh) and it really, really helped (me to spend my money). I had met last year the friend who put up with me this month, when I needed a place to stay/sleep over the week-ends. We didn't know each other much, so I was surprised that it worked out so well. We realised that we had so many things in common and I was, like, yeah for a new friend! \o/
;)

So, yeah, friend, nano, meetings, it certainly helped the moral. We met on Skype on week-days and challenged each other. The great thing was, there was pretty much always one of us motivated, which kind of pushed the other to buckle up and write.

Still, we got to the 29th and I was like 'omg, I'm 15'000 words late! @_@ '
And I really was 15k late. Didn't think I'd see the end, but I wanted to at least try. We wrote 3k on Thursday and, thankfully, we were both free on Friday to have a marathon writing. We started at 9 am and I finished at 11:30 pm, but I did my god-damned 12k in one day! I was so exhausted yesterday night, my fingers and back hurt, I felt like my head was going to either burst or leak out of my ears xD
(My friend discovered around 10 pm that she had miscounted her words and was actually 7k ahead. She was soooo annoyed, since she'd been working her ass off to meet the word count by the end of the day, knowing that she had 3k more than me to write).


Bottom-line, I wrote 50'029 words this month :) Next year, I'll try to write 50k of one story, though ^^;;;
I tried, I really did. I started with an original story (apocalyptic, ecological fable, sort of), which lasted 18'000 words, until I was ready to chuck it out of the window. The story was bland, with way too much narrative and not nearly enough dialogues. I got bored writing my own story, which made me re-think the whole thing ^^;;; I tried to force myself, because I did want to finish one story (for once. You wouldn't believe how many bits and pieces of fanfictions I have on my hard drive, none of them anywhere near finished). I gave up on the eleventh, too annoyed with my work. I was already starting to slow down in my writing.

From there, BBC Sherlock! I had an idea or two, which spawned two beginnings of fanfics for another 15k, without much more success. I don't like what I write, because it feels bland and with too much 'telling' and not enough 'showing'. Sort of.
(of course, I also got distracted by Assassin's Creed I halfway through the month, which really didn't help the wordcount xD ).

My saving grace was Keira Marcos' fanfics. I starting reading her SGA stories again (for the umpteenth time) and realised that this was what I wanted to write/read. An action-packed, emotions-filled story, that you started to read and couldn't stop yourself, that you re-read so many times, waiting impatiently for the next part. I tried to pay attention to the way she wrote, but I always lose myself in the story, five minutes later, so it was actually really hard to remember to check out how she turned her sentences, paragraphs, started her chapters, ...
Anyway, that's what I did. Of course, reading SGA fanfictions didn't help me to write my SH ones one bit ^^;;; and I started yet another story. This time, it was a SGA/FFVII crossover, which was meant to be a short story to push me out of my funk and ended up lasting 17k and being nowhere near finished. I hope I'll manage to push myself to work on it again (but not right now, after 12k written yesterday, I'm kind of burned out. And afraid to re-read the last 3 or 5k, because I know that it must be some pretty scary reading, if I even can manage to understand what the heck I meant...).

All this to say, I am a Nanowrimo 2012 winner ;)


Tis post was brought to you by anyssia, trying to keep up with the '750 words a day' challenge aka, I didn't write enough during November, so I started another challenge, aka, now that I've started writing again, it'd be nice if I could make an habit of it :)
(which reminds me, I also have four books left to read for my Goodreads challenge, until the end of the year...)